NO MATTER WHAT I STILL LOVE YOU

Today, why do you have to revise back last night stuff?? If it isn't because of that, we wouldn't be like this now.. Why you have to think alot?? I don't want you to become like this...  You will go insane one day.. Sometimes you talk to me, you become very fierce.. Do you still love me?? Do you still care about me? I love you, I misses you very much..If you were here with me, I believe that you wouldn't say that word to me, it's because your far away, you never trusted me, you never trusted this relationship will go on till the very end of our last breath.. I trust you, put my hope in you, that I can count on you, but at the end, you told me thing that I wouldn't wanna listen.. Did I disappointed you and let you down? Yes.. I'm sorry.. I never want to see you unhappy, I thought you want the same for me.. You've touched my heart, touched my soul, and now what am I supposed to do? I've got no place to turn to... You told me you will love me till you close your eyes forever.. And now? Where all the promises gone? I know you said I don't keep my promises too, that's why you do that too.. Its okay.. You do that to me, its because I started it first.. I'll be okay.. Now, I've got no words to put anymore in a sentence to tell you how much I really love you.. No matter what, I'll still be sitting here, waiting for you to come back, I will not go anyway.. Lastly, I really love you hubby.. Take care.. God bless you always.. I give all my wishes for you, that I wish you got a happy life.. I really hope this world would only be you and me.. Then we could be together forever, happy forever, no worries forever.. I really miss you.. Deep down my heart, I only will love you, miss you.. I wanna a hug from you, wanna hug you now!! Hug tight and never let go.. You said you cried for me in front of your friends, izit true? I'm sorry that I make you like that.. But now all I know that I see only my tears on my eyes.. I miss you!! I love you!! Sorry for the troubles..

YOUR STILL THE BEST

I've read what you had sent to me last night.. I felt touched when you told me that you cried in front of your friends, and most of all, the word that touch my heart very much is that you said to me that you'll love me until you close your eyes forever.. Ever time that word came into my mind, my tears just began to flow out.. I never thought that you would say that to me.. I never thought that you will treat me that good.. What am I? What I've done, that makes me that important to you? You've sacrifice so much for me, but do you think that it's worthy? I just felt that I done deserve it, I don't deserve that much of your love.. Every time, you mad at me, angry me, I didn't blame you, because I know that I didn't do well, I disappoint you, hurt you, make you sad.. Do you think that I'm suitable for your love? You gave me everything, and I gave you nothing much, why you still love me that much? I do hope I can promise you that I will love you till the very end of my life, but I guess, my promises to you worth nothing, because I've break that much promise.. So even though now I speak the truth, you also wouldn't believe already... I'm sorry hubby.. But I hope that our love will always grew better, happier each day =) Give me, us, one more chance to prove that we are meant to be together.. I really wanna say it again, my heart for you are true, there no others, only you.. Trust me, that I will always stay with you forever, till the end of my life.. Sharing thoughts, laughter, happiness, sadness together.. I love you hubby...

TRUST ME, LOVE ME

I cry for you, I cry right now.. I wonder why, I wonder how.. You've hurt my feelings, I've hurt your feelings.. You've broke my heart, I've broke your heart.. I hate it when we we're always apart.. I love you, but do you love me? I trust that you love me, but why can't you trust me? We hug, we kiss, we hold hands, but that's all we can do now, I wish I can do more, and I'll wait for the future to come, but that's all up to you whether you can make it or not.. Why can't you trust or believe me? You think I cheat you, is that what you see? I would never hurt or break up with you, at least that's what I think, do you think that way too? When I'm with you, I'm as happy as can be, I think about you all night.. I misses you so much, that I barely can explain it to you..I just don't know how to explain it.. I think you're nice, caring, loving, and also very strong, sometimes I feel like nothing can go wrong.. Do you even know my feelings for you? I wish I can express my love that's been so true.. Forget what people say or might even do, or what bad had happen, you should always remember that I'll always love you.. Sometimes, when I'm alone, I wanna cry, but when I remember all the good moments that I had by your side, I feel better, this remind me that you've changed my whole life, I MISS YOU ALOT!!! I tell you everything, I do everything for you, I trust you with everything, I love you with my everything, I will never cheat on you, I will never wanted to to hurt you, I never wanted to disappoint you,  please trust me when I say I love you and only you, because your my everything..

LIVES FULL OF UPS AND DOWNS, BUT REMEMBER, BE STRONG ALWAYS

HUh.. Tiring day.. My body still feel injured, because pass two days I went to play badminton with friends.. But have fun too.. Hmmm, I miss my hubby, hope his there too, playing with me, but he promise when his back he will play together with me o.. hehe.. I miss you very much, I want your hug now =( Hmmm, though your far away, but I still wanna thanks God that we can go through each day without seeing or meeting each other and still can stay till now.. xD.. I hope this love last forever.. I just want us to be happy always, together always, time passes fast, we will meet again soon, will be together soon.. Hmmm, hubby ah, I'm thinking of going travelling, want go ma? hahass.. Bored ah in Kuching.. xD.. Lalalalalala~ I sometimes just wander, I do really hope you can understand how much I love you.. All the argue, quarreling, all these it doesn't mean I don't love you, maybe it's just another step closer to get to know you more, know how you feel.. Sometimes things do happen again and again, and I really felt sorry.. I felt tired, angry, why these all things kept happening, and I know your disappointed, sad, hurt.. I'm sorry hubby.. What can I do to repair all the hurt, sad feelings I gave to you? How can I do to improve our relationship and make it better? Please, do trust me, I Love You.. I know my trust in you, getting lesser.. I want to earn back that trust in you.. I love you hubby..

Hmmm, this days something happen, it upset me when I see my didi sad.. I just can't bare to see him like that, hope I can cheer him up, but I just don't know how.. He and his gf got into some problem, and it seems like the final decision is that the gf wanna break up.. I know many people will think that it's just a simple relationship, but to me, I don't think so.. They are having a distance relationship.. My didi is a strong guy, I never saw his that upset before, so when I saw him like that, I know he truly love her.. He told me before, that maybe she's gonna be his last, and forever.. But unfortunately, The gf says, the daddy doesn't allow her to have a relationship because she's still studying, and because of that, she stress alot.. And felt wanna break.. But to me, its not a good excuse to break up.. If you truly love a person, you either will asked him to wait for you or find ways to solved the problems, and not breaking up... ANd didi did says his willing to wait, no matter how long, but why do you have to just makes him upset??!! But no matter what, I'll always be there if he needs me.. But I just wanna to give him a word, 如果你爱得有点累了请别难为自己.. I hope he will be fine soon.. Is the lost happiness more beautiful than the bravery of letting go?? Please, I do hope you will find back your happiness soon..

WILL YOU STILL LOVE ME??

Will you still love me even if I'm not perfect? Will you still love me even if I'm not the kind of person you wished I were? Will you still look into my eyes with warmth even if you saw my shadows? Will you still hold my hand even if you knew there will be times I'd let you down?

Sometimes I'd be silent and I might bore you.. Sometimes I'd get troubled and I'd fail to put into words what it is that troubles me.. I'm not a good company then, I couldn't make you smile always.. 

Sometimes I'd get moody in a sudden.. Sometimes I'd lose my temper and I'd no longer act like the fine person who stands before you today.. Sometimes I'd get jealous and I might say things I don't really mean.. Sometimes I'd talk too much that I might drive you away..

Sometimes I'd get touchy and I'd get easily hurt.. And no matter how mature I try to be, at times I'd act in childish ways.. I'd demand things I shouldn't, I'd say things I shouldn't say.. And the things I usual do, always makes you upset, is that I always promise you with a thing, and I never make it.. I do really hope that I can really one day, kept my promise that I had promise to you..  And no matter how much I desire to protect you and make you happy, sometimes I'd be the one who'd cause you the most pain..

I don't know why it's so.. But I just wan't you to know that, all those that I've done, I didn't mean it.. I wan't you to know that you gonna be my last.. ANd forever I wanna be with you..  I might not be the perfect one, but I will try to be the best for you.. I will try to give you all the best I had.. Since I meet you, you gave me your very best, you've done alot for me, and I wanna say thanks, I'm glad that I meet your in life.. Thanks To God, for bringing us together..