CRAZY + FUN :)

Woots... Hihi blog :) I'm back again.. Teheess... It's SUNDAY!! At home resting.. hmmm, 3weeks more to go, and KL, here I come.. Yiepiii!!! hehe... Gonna be fun in KL soon, meeting up my buddies, friends, yeshhh!! XD.. WOahh, having fun everyday loh, but sometimes there are bad times too loh :( It's okay la, life is made up off those things what.. NOt a big deal.. hehe.. This days abit sot Clubbing la.. haha.. Every friday or saturday du go club with friends..

hahaha... Pics of memories together at Pavillion ah!! wakakakaka... XD... All clubbing kaki lai de loh... lalalalala~ Huh, ho la.. MAi say clubbing le la.. Say other stuff... XD.. WHat should I do now? Bored.. Watch movie? Nah, very sien... XD.. hmmm, btw, I was thinking to go KL working lo, now finding a suitable job to work in KL lo.. I want to be a useful person :) Stay here in KUching, I felt that I cant improved myself if I continue staying here lo... Aiks.. God bless me in finding a suitable job soon in KL, Amen :) Anyway, bless me in finding a suitable partner in the future too :) This days something happen, makes me very very hate guys that is a liar!! SIgh~ I wish to forget everythings that makes me moody, makes me feel bad... Wo zhi yao KUAI LE JIU GOU LE!!! XD... 

HUh... I'M SO SO TIRED..

HAIHZZ... Tiring.. I'm sick for few days le.. HAte being sick... Do anything also don't feel right... sigh.. Ahhhhhhh!!! Forget about it!! Pray that I'll get well soon... XD.. Oh well, MOnday went to Damai with my buddies :) HAve alot of fun lo... But unfortunately, come back from damai jiu sick le >.< Sien lo.. BUt at least have fun at there.. haha.. Our pics :)

Hehehe... Nice!! Next time go again... lalalalala~  Hmmmm, it has been a week le loh, every day out till so so late lo.. Wake up so early everyday gok.. Work whole day.. Night time jiu out, happy.. Haha... Macam robot saja lo... Now sick le lo... Tiam ah.. haha... Canot always out le, battery pun wan flat le. At home charge battery first.. Wait recover then out la... Hahaha... Just now really feeling down so sudden!! But thanks God, now okay le... Maybe because sick, plus abit dizzy just now.. Now blowing aircond!! Song... My mood is back.. Yeah!! Yeah!!! lalalalalallalaa.... hmmm, friends ask go Sing K, still kao li zhe lo.. Feel wanna go, but feel wanna rest and get well fast.. But I beh tahan lo, wannt sing k... Wan be naughty yi xia.. haha... No lar.. stay at home better... Kk.. Go rest lur... XD

STARTING A NEW HAPPY LIFE

Hmmm, it's been a long while away from here, it's been a long while that I stop writing on my blogs.. Before I thought I use this blog to share my happiness with everyone, but after something happen, I just don't think that I fit in here anymore.. I just don't find any happy words, happy things to share here.. I became emotional after then... Haih.. I need fresh air so much!! I needed break so much!! Welll, after a month, new things came in my life.. Once again, I'm back to the happy me :) Smile alot each day, laugh alot each day.. I felt that my life getting more and more happier.. XD.. Thanks to all my friends that cheering me up, thanks for staying with me through my bad times and happy times too.. You guys are all my best buddies.. Thanks God that I have you all in my life.. After all these things that happen, I've realize, never to fall for a thing that easily anymore, never ever do things based on emotion.. You will fail if you do so.. Oh well, I'm happy each day :) Hmmm, I'm wishing everyone, Have a great day, and Always stay happy.. Ignore the things that makes you feel bad :D

EVERYTHING HAS ENDED

Well... Everything has already ended.. By this choice that we had made, I hope, this can bring happiness to the both of us.. They won't be any arguing le.. You go your way, I go my way, but hope we still friends.. Take good care of yourself ya.. I'll be okay here too =) hmmm, after all, I don't regret being with you.. Happy that I meet ya in life.. MY life back to the same old me.. Free to do anything I want.. xD.. BUt, something changed, that is the way I think.. No longer the old thoughts anymore.. Hmmmm, guess thats a good news for me.. hehe.. It's time to grow up, cannot be childish le.. hehe.. Need to be mature le.. hehe.. xD.. This days one day out, one day no out.. haha.. Abit tired loh always out.. At home also good, can rest more =) All my friends, now get back in touch le.. hehe... xD.. Long time no chat with them, long time no see them le.. xD.. Yea, tomorrow Lydia, My best friend coming back from Australia.. Gonna pick her tomorrow.. teheess.. xD.. So excited.. CAn't wait to meet her soon =)

WHAT I FELT FOR YOU

I wanna hold your hands and walk together for the rest of my life.. My life is so beautiful because of you.. Hug me for my worries to die, my tears to dry, and my loneliness to fly.. It hurts me to know how I sometimes can be selfish, when it comes to you.. I miss you every moment of the day.. I kept myself awake just to listen to you, just to talk to you.. I kept myself empty just for you to fill in.. I misses you so much hubby... The things that happen has already been a past.. I will try my best to be the best for you.. This time I'm not gonna say sorry, I will say I love you hubby, and I will not be naughty, will not make hubby moody again.. And I also hope that hubby don't apologize too next time... =) I just want us to stay happy always.. I know every single thing I do will cause you to think much.. When its good thing happen, you will be so happy, and I love seeing you happy, but when its something you don't like, you will just kept quite and get moody, thinking alot by yourself.. I don't want you to be like that.. If there is something that you don't like me to do, please tell me, I don't want you to keep it to yourself, and get moody.. Seeing you moody, doesn't makes me happy, but makes me think alot and moody too... So hubby, if there is anything, just tell me.. Together find ways to solved it.. okay? Aiks.. Don't say this le.. XD.. This days I'm really happy.. I realize you had change your temper, and I'm proud of you.. You no longer get mad at me easily le.. When I make you moody, you still care about me, and forget about the moody stuff... But hubby, I didnt mean to make you moody.. =( I love you hubby.. This days I always hear you say tired, ting dao xing dou hen tong.. Baby sayang hubby ya.. Hubby must rest well ya.. Don't get yourself too tired.. Remember to drink more water too ya.. Hugs...

HAPPY DAY [4TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY]

It's Sunday.. XD.. Went to church this morning.. Then dapao KFC and eat at home.. So full... LAlalalala~ Hmmm, last night, we're back together le.. hehe.. Happy, happy!! =) Since we broke up, I didn't slept well, no mood to eat.. NOw, it's all fine le.. Hehe.. Today is our 4th Months together.. Yeah!!! Happy 4months anniversary, Hubby.. Teheess... I love you hubby.. Proud to be with you... Hmmm, hubby seems weird today, look like something happen.. Sigh~ Aahhhh, don't think too much la.. Maybe I'm the one thinking too much.. Hubby told me his busy, but I just thinks alot.. En la, I don't think too much like hubby says.. I will guai guai de, hubby too ya.. xD.. Hubby, weather is hot outside, remember to drink more water ya.. Hughug... Mwarhs..

Hmmmm, its been few days staying at home le, though its few days, but for me, I break record not to go out le.. hehe.. Resting at home also not bad after all =) Its friday, saturday and sunday, I should be going out play, but no loh.. Listen to hubby, guai guai de.. hehe.. This days slept early too loh.. So energetic each day, not tiring.. Hehe.. This days at home, I also can hear laughing, happy sound.. Yea, our family relationship getting better, aren't like before le, always will hear tiok quarreling noises around.. Now no more le lur.. Bad stuff, out you go!! Happy stuff, you're invited.. teheesss... xD.. Yeapi.. yeapi...

给我一个理由忘记...

My heart hurts!!! WHy can it be?? How can it be?? I've tried so hard, I've tried my best to let you go, to forget the pain in the heart.. I have tired!! I have tried!! It has been 2days that I stay strong, I didn't cry, I didn't get myself moody, I still manage to put the smile on my face, but I failed today.. Tears began to fall, I began to lock myself in the room now.. Being alone here, no way to turn.. What should I do? After all, I've tried to maintain this relationship, but still end up being a lonely girl here.. But anyway, thanks so much for this few months relationship, and I'll will not forget you.. I WILL NOT FORGET YOU!! I can't find any reason to forget you.. My heart hurt, so as my head.. If it isn't because of the word you have said just now, guess we still being a close friends, I won't end up like this.. I still can remember the promises we made in the past, that we will always be happy, that we gonna be together forever, no matter what happen, we will stand together to solve it, but now, everything has gone.. What is left of us just pics, memories and an empty heart of mine.. I miss you.. I just doesn't know how to explain the feelings for you, I love you, I wanna be with you till forever, and I want you to care about me, I want you to love me till forever too, but I can't be that selfish, I don't want you to get hurt, I don't want you to suffer, I just want to see you smile, promise me you would smile forever, k? Because I just love the way you smile.. I'm not a perfect girl, but I've tried.. Take good care of yourself.. I will always love you.. What hurts the most is that, I've let you go, but the image of you still in my mind, your presence are still in my heart.. Wo yi jing hen yong gan le rang ni zou, zhi yao ni kai xing wo jiu hui kai xing, dan wei shen me, wo xing hai jue de hao tong??

NO MATTER WHAT I STILL LOVE YOU

Today, why do you have to revise back last night stuff?? If it isn't because of that, we wouldn't be like this now.. Why you have to think alot?? I don't want you to become like this...  You will go insane one day.. Sometimes you talk to me, you become very fierce.. Do you still love me?? Do you still care about me? I love you, I misses you very much..If you were here with me, I believe that you wouldn't say that word to me, it's because your far away, you never trusted me, you never trusted this relationship will go on till the very end of our last breath.. I trust you, put my hope in you, that I can count on you, but at the end, you told me thing that I wouldn't wanna listen.. Did I disappointed you and let you down? Yes.. I'm sorry.. I never want to see you unhappy, I thought you want the same for me.. You've touched my heart, touched my soul, and now what am I supposed to do? I've got no place to turn to... You told me you will love me till you close your eyes forever.. And now? Where all the promises gone? I know you said I don't keep my promises too, that's why you do that too.. Its okay.. You do that to me, its because I started it first.. I'll be okay.. Now, I've got no words to put anymore in a sentence to tell you how much I really love you.. No matter what, I'll still be sitting here, waiting for you to come back, I will not go anyway.. Lastly, I really love you hubby.. Take care.. God bless you always.. I give all my wishes for you, that I wish you got a happy life.. I really hope this world would only be you and me.. Then we could be together forever, happy forever, no worries forever.. I really miss you.. Deep down my heart, I only will love you, miss you.. I wanna a hug from you, wanna hug you now!! Hug tight and never let go.. You said you cried for me in front of your friends, izit true? I'm sorry that I make you like that.. But now all I know that I see only my tears on my eyes.. I miss you!! I love you!! Sorry for the troubles..

YOUR STILL THE BEST

I've read what you had sent to me last night.. I felt touched when you told me that you cried in front of your friends, and most of all, the word that touch my heart very much is that you said to me that you'll love me until you close your eyes forever.. Ever time that word came into my mind, my tears just began to flow out.. I never thought that you would say that to me.. I never thought that you will treat me that good.. What am I? What I've done, that makes me that important to you? You've sacrifice so much for me, but do you think that it's worthy? I just felt that I done deserve it, I don't deserve that much of your love.. Every time, you mad at me, angry me, I didn't blame you, because I know that I didn't do well, I disappoint you, hurt you, make you sad.. Do you think that I'm suitable for your love? You gave me everything, and I gave you nothing much, why you still love me that much? I do hope I can promise you that I will love you till the very end of my life, but I guess, my promises to you worth nothing, because I've break that much promise.. So even though now I speak the truth, you also wouldn't believe already... I'm sorry hubby.. But I hope that our love will always grew better, happier each day =) Give me, us, one more chance to prove that we are meant to be together.. I really wanna say it again, my heart for you are true, there no others, only you.. Trust me, that I will always stay with you forever, till the end of my life.. Sharing thoughts, laughter, happiness, sadness together.. I love you hubby...

TRUST ME, LOVE ME

I cry for you, I cry right now.. I wonder why, I wonder how.. You've hurt my feelings, I've hurt your feelings.. You've broke my heart, I've broke your heart.. I hate it when we we're always apart.. I love you, but do you love me? I trust that you love me, but why can't you trust me? We hug, we kiss, we hold hands, but that's all we can do now, I wish I can do more, and I'll wait for the future to come, but that's all up to you whether you can make it or not.. Why can't you trust or believe me? You think I cheat you, is that what you see? I would never hurt or break up with you, at least that's what I think, do you think that way too? When I'm with you, I'm as happy as can be, I think about you all night.. I misses you so much, that I barely can explain it to you..I just don't know how to explain it.. I think you're nice, caring, loving, and also very strong, sometimes I feel like nothing can go wrong.. Do you even know my feelings for you? I wish I can express my love that's been so true.. Forget what people say or might even do, or what bad had happen, you should always remember that I'll always love you.. Sometimes, when I'm alone, I wanna cry, but when I remember all the good moments that I had by your side, I feel better, this remind me that you've changed my whole life, I MISS YOU ALOT!!! I tell you everything, I do everything for you, I trust you with everything, I love you with my everything, I will never cheat on you, I will never wanted to to hurt you, I never wanted to disappoint you,  please trust me when I say I love you and only you, because your my everything..

LIVES FULL OF UPS AND DOWNS, BUT REMEMBER, BE STRONG ALWAYS

HUh.. Tiring day.. My body still feel injured, because pass two days I went to play badminton with friends.. But have fun too.. Hmmm, I miss my hubby, hope his there too, playing with me, but he promise when his back he will play together with me o.. hehe.. I miss you very much, I want your hug now =( Hmmm, though your far away, but I still wanna thanks God that we can go through each day without seeing or meeting each other and still can stay till now.. xD.. I hope this love last forever.. I just want us to be happy always, together always, time passes fast, we will meet again soon, will be together soon.. Hmmm, hubby ah, I'm thinking of going travelling, want go ma? hahass.. Bored ah in Kuching.. xD.. Lalalalalala~ I sometimes just wander, I do really hope you can understand how much I love you.. All the argue, quarreling, all these it doesn't mean I don't love you, maybe it's just another step closer to get to know you more, know how you feel.. Sometimes things do happen again and again, and I really felt sorry.. I felt tired, angry, why these all things kept happening, and I know your disappointed, sad, hurt.. I'm sorry hubby.. What can I do to repair all the hurt, sad feelings I gave to you? How can I do to improve our relationship and make it better? Please, do trust me, I Love You.. I know my trust in you, getting lesser.. I want to earn back that trust in you.. I love you hubby..

Hmmm, this days something happen, it upset me when I see my didi sad.. I just can't bare to see him like that, hope I can cheer him up, but I just don't know how.. He and his gf got into some problem, and it seems like the final decision is that the gf wanna break up.. I know many people will think that it's just a simple relationship, but to me, I don't think so.. They are having a distance relationship.. My didi is a strong guy, I never saw his that upset before, so when I saw him like that, I know he truly love her.. He told me before, that maybe she's gonna be his last, and forever.. But unfortunately, The gf says, the daddy doesn't allow her to have a relationship because she's still studying, and because of that, she stress alot.. And felt wanna break.. But to me, its not a good excuse to break up.. If you truly love a person, you either will asked him to wait for you or find ways to solved the problems, and not breaking up... ANd didi did says his willing to wait, no matter how long, but why do you have to just makes him upset??!! But no matter what, I'll always be there if he needs me.. But I just wanna to give him a word, 如果你爱得有点累了请别难为自己.. I hope he will be fine soon.. Is the lost happiness more beautiful than the bravery of letting go?? Please, I do hope you will find back your happiness soon..

WILL YOU STILL LOVE ME??

Will you still love me even if I'm not perfect? Will you still love me even if I'm not the kind of person you wished I were? Will you still look into my eyes with warmth even if you saw my shadows? Will you still hold my hand even if you knew there will be times I'd let you down?

Sometimes I'd be silent and I might bore you.. Sometimes I'd get troubled and I'd fail to put into words what it is that troubles me.. I'm not a good company then, I couldn't make you smile always.. 

Sometimes I'd get moody in a sudden.. Sometimes I'd lose my temper and I'd no longer act like the fine person who stands before you today.. Sometimes I'd get jealous and I might say things I don't really mean.. Sometimes I'd talk too much that I might drive you away..

Sometimes I'd get touchy and I'd get easily hurt.. And no matter how mature I try to be, at times I'd act in childish ways.. I'd demand things I shouldn't, I'd say things I shouldn't say.. And the things I usual do, always makes you upset, is that I always promise you with a thing, and I never make it.. I do really hope that I can really one day, kept my promise that I had promise to you..  And no matter how much I desire to protect you and make you happy, sometimes I'd be the one who'd cause you the most pain..

I don't know why it's so.. But I just wan't you to know that, all those that I've done, I didn't mean it.. I wan't you to know that you gonna be my last.. ANd forever I wanna be with you..  I might not be the perfect one, but I will try to be the best for you.. I will try to give you all the best I had.. Since I meet you, you gave me your very best, you've done alot for me, and I wanna say thanks, I'm glad that I meet your in life.. Thanks To God, for bringing us together..

BE MY NUMBER ONE ♥

Me, plus you.. I'm gonna tell you one more time, it's me and you.. When I met you, my heart when knock knock.. Now them butterflies in my stomach won't stop.. And now even though it's a struggle love is all we got, and we still gonna keep keep climbing to the mountain top.. Your world is my world, and my fight is your fight, my breath is your breath, and your heart, your my one love, my one heart.. I may be your one girl, but your my number1 guy... You makes me happy.. And now I know where I really wanna be, right by your side, cause your the one.. You've got everything I needed, so I'm gonna tell you one more time, it's you and me forever.. I love you for what you had made in me when I'm with you, I'm glad that I meet you in life.. FOrever I will thank God for letting us to meet, to be together... I want to spend my forever, my future with you.. I love the way you are now, you don't believe me that I really do care about you, it's okay, because I just like spending my whole life to prove it to you, and I'm glad I can do that.. As long I can be with you, nothing much more I wanted.. I'm glad that we can spend this few days together, you came back just to see me, and I didn't plan everything well, and makes you disappointed in me.. I'm sorry.. BUt I really wanna tell you, no matter how, or what I've done wrong, I just wanna say that I do really happy when I can meet with you, I do care about you, I do care about your existence, I do hope I can see you everyday.. SOrry that my brain is small, that I didn't think far, didn't think about your feelings sometimes, I'm praying hard that God gives me more knowledge, more wisdom, that I can think wider, and think better.. I love you my sweet hubby ♥

ALL I WANT IS JUST YOU

I don't know what, or how can I say, or explain to you, how much you really meant to me, how much I really care about you.. No matter how I explain, you still keep on your own thinking.. I don't blame you on anything, me myself sometimes did wrong too.. I just really hope you do understand how much you meant to me, I really mean it.. I say I miss you, and it's true!! I know that 3 words, often been said by others, spoken out from their mouth, but I say that 3 words is really from my heart and its not just a simple, or simply words, its true from the heart.. I do wish, I can meet you everyday, but I know for now, it couldn't happen, but I'll wait.. I just hope you don't think too much.. Don't think the negative way, but on the positive side..  I won't do anything things that's sorry to you.. I say I love you, it's true, it's also not a simple, or a simply word, I really meant it.. Do you understand?? Everyone knows that distance relationship is not easy, but why do I wanted it?? Why do I wanna continue it?? Because I'm happy when I'm with you, I felt secure, and it's not because I'm happy because I'm in relationship, but I'm happy is because the person I'm in relationship with, is YOU.. We can make it, as long as we trust that we will last forever, and it will.. Miracles always happen to those who believe, and I believe it.. Trust in Lord with all your heart, all your strength and all your might.. I believe Miracles with happen in us..

TIRING DAY.. BUT HAVING FUN

Yerrrr... I'm addicted to that song by Justin Bieber - Never say never.. WOots.. SO damn nice.. xD... Anyway, hehe.. Back to Damai again today.. This time we went to Damai Puri.. xD.. At last, went to swim in the beach.. It's a cooling day, yea, no sun.. But so unfortunate, in the afternoon the sun come out le, walao, tiok sun burn on the face.. Eeee... Red until now.. Luckily not that pain le.. hehe.. xD.. Hmmmm, missing hubby so much today, hope his with me at the beach playing.. hehe.. Walao.. Now at home, leg so pain, tired loh.. But at least having fun with friends.. xD.. Lalalaalaaalaa...xD.. I was planning to sleep early tonight, but miss hubby till go edit pic ki.. haha.. Told him, I was going to sleep, but oopsss ^^ NO sleep.. hehe.. Edit pics =)

 Miss Hubby Lor...

Hubby Like MA? hehe.. xD

hmmm, kay, I'm done le, can talk to hubby on phone liao.. xD.. I wish hubby is here now, I want hug hug.. xD.. Aiyo, I think my leg muscles cramp loh, so pain bah, lying down on bed also pain.. Ishhh.... Hubby help me massage mo.. hehe.. NOlar, don't bully hubby... lalalalalala~ I think rest le jiu okay le next day.. xD.. This morning wake up so early, really so sot.. haha.. But bo pian, want go Damai play.. Eeee... Hubby why next week then back? If this week, sure play dao ki xiao.. hahass... En, la, talk to hubby jiu sleep le.. hehe.. xD.. Mwarhs.. Goodnight..

OH.. HAPPY DAY... HAPPY DAY =)

Wieeeee.... Happy day... hehe.. Today first day, first time flip flops carnival happen in Kuching.. Hot Air Balloon!! I wanna have a ride in it!! hehe... Went to damai becah just now, just walking on the beach, seeing the view only.. THen back to Kuching le.. Tomorrow morning back to that place again with friends, then have a swim at the beach le.. hehe... Tomorrow I wanna go to the carnival, tonight can't, too tired.. Aiks.. Hmmm, I hope my hubby was here.. Can go together with him.. Eeee... I miss you hubby!!! CAn you hear me??? I really miss you so much!!! I hope you can stay by my side till forever♥ ... But I know hubby next week coming back le.. 6 more days.. hope time pass fast, so I can meet you soon.. But when your with me together, I hope  time goes by slow... hehe... Eeee... selfish de me, but I miss you so much... Mwarhs... hehe... Hmmmm, waiting hubby back home, wanna talk to hubby... xD.. I really can't wait to meet hubby.. Hump >.< There is so much things I wanna do together with hubby.. Go eat ice cream together, go watch movie together, go shopping together, go sing k together, most of all drink cola together ♥ ... teheess... Hubby fast fast back liao.. Miss you so much chin.. Hubby miss me ma? I help hubby answer, of course yes!! hehehe... xD.. I no need help hubby answer, I already know hubby will miss me.. lalallalala ^^ Hubby... Hubby... hubby ♥

Mwarhs

Hubbyy... hubby... Sweet ma? hehe.. I found the pic on9 geh.. I see very sweet, so unloaded it.. It's for you.. teheess... Miss you ah.. 

WHAT SHOULD I DO??

What should I do next? I've already tried my very best, but still I've failed.. Izit all the things that I had done,doesn't prove that I really loved you?? You told me before, that if anything I asked, you say No, don't asked you why, because you sure got a reason why you say no.. But just now I'm just asking whether I can go club or not, you just have to tell me no or yes, that's all.. I didn't asked you to give me anything, just wanna a true answer from you.. Yet you get moody with me.. What's wrong telling me the true answer??? I already say I won't get mad, or think much, as long as you gave me the true answer.. But you never did.. Should I be disappointed in you? I already listen to you, cut down hanging out on midnight, cut down going out often.. By that I wanna prove that not only you listen to me, I also listen to what you say, because I love you.. But guess you still never get what my feelings are for you.. Everytime I think about you my tears would fall out, Everytime I start missing you, tears will just fall.. Seeing pairs outside together happily, ya, I admit, I envy, But I always keep reminding myself to wait for you, no matter how hard it is, I still wanna wait.. Why I wanna wait if I don't love you?? I bet you are sleeping right now.. You promise not to let my tears fall, but it kept on running down from my eyes.. I can't stop it, I don't know why.. I trusted you, I put so much hopes on you that you will take good care of me, will treat me good, will comfort me, but I just don't understand is that, ya, you care for me, treat me good, comfort me, but why still tears running down??? I wouldn't wanna sleep tonight.. Not in a mood to sleep.. But I will pray that you sleep well, rest well.. Goodnight Hubby.. I love you..

I MISS YOU

hUbby... We just didn't get to talk for a night, and I begin to miss you so much... Last night I was just hoping you to call me, even though I said that I'm okay.. I just don't want you to spend your telephone bills over limit again and again.. I know you said that it's ok.. You said that you do that because you love me.. But I can't be that selfish too.. I need to think about you too.. And I love you, so, I sacrifice not to talk to you so long on the phone, not because I don't want too.. I want to talk to you, I miss you so much, but I just can't be that selfish.. I know this days you kept saying that I'm weird but, I hope you understand why I do so.. I doesn't know how to explain it to you.. Everytime I wanna explain it, I just make everything ruin... I'm sorry... 

Sometimes tears just fall out in a sudden, I don't know why.. It's not because I'm sad or what, but I guess maybe it's because I'm thinking about you, I miss you!!  Often there are words I really wanna say to you, but I just couldn't open my mouth to say, I just don't want you to worried, and I don't want to broke down in tears when I said that.. But I just wanna it out now.. There is nothing more special to me in this world than having you by my side always and I MISS YOU SO MUCH.. But I really looking forward to meet you. soon.. You promise me that you will come back end of this month, please don't break your promise.. I'm waiting.. 

AM I WEIRD TODAY? IF YES, SORRY..

Time passes.. Days passes.. Weeks passes.. Everything's different each day.. I'm trying my very best to work this relationship out.. Whatever you don't like, I try my very best not to do it.... Problems that we had, I try my very best to fix it.. Seeing you happy, then anything is okay for me.. I just wander why it's had to make ourselves feeling right?? I wanted to be happy.. I wanted Him to be happy too.. But How?? Sometimes, I just can't control my feeling and burst in flame.. I'm sorry.. But now, I really admit, I'm feeling abit down.. Not feeling good.. Moody.. I don't know why.. Don't asked me why.. How I wish, when I'm in silently, you can just understand what I'm thinking.. Now, I din't know what I'm thinking, what to do next.. I just want everything to go smoothly.. Huh!! Silly me, there no such things in this world that could stay smoothly forever.. But, I'm willing to go through everything with you.. Sorry if you feel that I'm feeling weird today, I didn't notice it.. I'm just kinda busy today.. But you said that I'm weird.. I'm thinking the whole day, what makes you think that I'm weird? Haih... Nevermind.. Guess I just take my rest early today.. You told me to talk tonight, but it seems you cant.. Its okay, have fun ya.. Take care.. I'll be okay by tomorrow.. I Love YOu.. HUh.. Stupid feelings make me down.. I wanted to asked you go home now, talk to me on phone, but I can't be that selfish!! You needed entertainment in your life.. Can't always just stayed at home.. You got your own freedom too, you gave me my mine, I should not kept yours away from you.. I just wanted you to be happy.. I can't sleep.. I don't wanna bother you, I wanted you to have fun there.. It's okay for me to be alone here once in a while.. xD.. Don't need to worried, I'm okay.. TEars falling, I wander why?? I don't know.. I just know that I miss you.. When I first saw you, I saw love.. When the first time you touched me, I felt love.. And after all this time, you're still the one I love..  I don't feel like continue writing now.. I don't want tears kept falling for no reason.. 

ANOTHER NEW DAY ♥

wOots.. Another new day has come.. Nice.. xD.. Teheess.. Went for driving lesson today.. Next week test le.. WOw.. Excited, but abit nervous.. Kin tio loh.. haha... Back from the lesson, abit tired.. But still that active.. So went on9.. haha.. Texting with hubby.. Naughty HIM ,disturb me but cute loh him.. xD..  haha.. But at least he guai guai send his pic to me.. Loving it much!! HEHE... XD.. Yeaa... yea.. Today mummy bought us a new doggie.. SO so cute to the max.. hehe.. Its a HER.. We named her COco.. xD. Eeee.... really so cute..xD.. 

Downloading PIcs of MY DOggie.... xD

31 MARCH 2011

SO CUTE

LOVE IT.. XD

BRO CARRYING THE DOGGIE

SLEEPING.. SHHHH

WOOTS.. CUTE!! CUTE!! CUTE!!

So cute ah.. Watching her sleeping now.. eee.. haha.. Now shes awake.. Playing.. xD... hmmm, my hubby so naughty now.. Always disturbing me.. Morning he naughty awhile only, then no le, sayang sayang me.. But noow.. Eeeee... Just now I went to slep, he so caring boh.. Now wake up le, bully me geh... Eeeee... Hubby ah, don't naughty ha.. Erm, but still loving hubby. Even much more boh.. xD.. Mwarhhs.. Hmmmm, going to bed soon, but waiting hubby go out eat first, then talk on the phone, then go to slep le.. hehe...  Hubby fast fast go eat ya..  hmmm, Hubby, I Miss YOu!! Fast come back Kuching liao.. Still waiting here ah... xD  ♥♥

WHAT LIVES IS MADE UP OF..

Thanks to those who hated me, you made me a stronger person. Thanks to those who loved me, you made my heart grow fonder. Thanks to those who envied me, you made my self-esteem grow stronger. Thanks to those who cared, you made me feel important. Thanks to those who entered my life, you made me who I am today. Thanks to those who left, you showed me that nothing last forever. Thanks to those who stayed, you showed me the true meaning of LOVE & FRIENDSHIP.. There are times when we meet all these troubles, then, it's the times that we learn how to stand strong.. That's the time we learn new things.. You never know how strong you are, until being strong is the only choice you had.. There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama and surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good.. After all, life is too short to be anything but happy.. Happiness is something that comes into our lives through doors we don't even remember leaving open.. There are many wonderful things that will never be done, if you do not do them.. You need courage now If you're gonna persevere.. To fulfill divine purpose, you gotta answer when you're called.. So don't be afraid to face the world against all odds.. What ever bad or good fortune may come our way we can always give it meaning and transform it into something of value."Those who dare to fail miserably can achieve greatly."

AM I THINKING ALOT??

I believe that everything happens for a reason.. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so that you can learn to trust no one but yourself, and some times good things fall apart so that better things can fall together.. If only there was something that I could say to make the sun shine and the rain go away.. If there was something I could do.. It hurts me to think that you're feeling so off about me.. It hurts me to think a lot, guessing every single steps of yours.. I just hope I could read your mind, understand you more, cheering you up when ever your down.. And not staying here, being a fool a brainless person.. I've been trying a lot, harder.. But I know as I try harder, I might fall even harder next time.. But no matter how hard I would fall I still wanna try even harder till I succeed, to see you happy is the joy of my life.. I hope as I fall you're there supporting me, getting me up, running the race together.. By then, I would not feel lonely, wouldn't feel disappointed too much.. I believe, I trust, you're already there to catch me before I fall.. And I just wanna say thanks for the care, for the catch, for the love, for the patient, for the support.. Your amazing person.. Thanks so much, even if it's a little things that you do, but it mean so much to me.. I appreciate every single things that you had done.. Though miles may lie between us, we are never far apart, for relationship doesn't count miles, it measures by the heart.. I miss you hubby..

HUBBY.. IT'S FOR YOU..

Here's my love, take it.. Here's my soul, use it.. Here's my heart, don't break it.. Here's my hand, hold it and together we will make it forever.. You may never know how important you are to me or how much I care for you, but you are and you will always be.. Bear in mind that I couldn't afford to lose someone I've learned to care about so much.. I love you, not because of what you have but because of what I feels.. I care for you, not because you need care but because I want to.. I'm always here for you, not because i want you to be with me but because i want to be with you.. There are many things that we do and we don't know why we do it, its not that we wanted but it just happen.. We always have our ups & downs but we always breakthrough.. I no how much you love me but do you no how much I love u? Having you in my life, Makes everything so special & beautiful... So many times I thought I would never find someone to love me the way I needed to be loved.. Then you came into my life and showed me what true love really is! The Love I got for you is true, the feeling I got for you is true, I just want you to feel what I am feeling now.. Your love make me feel happy inside, On the outside I feel alone like you ain't there or you don't want me around you.. Maybe it's just me, thinking too much.. I asked for nothing, but I just needed you to understand me and what I go through everyday, When I feel sad all the time when your not around, My love for you is real and will always be there for you.. Every moment spent with you... is forever fresh... forever new! I Love You! Words can't explain, even the look of my eyes and the touch of my hands sometimes can't try to show how much you are treasured in my life.. I love you with all my soul and heart... I mean with my everything.. I just hope you don't think too much always..  And if you do, please tell me what you're thinking.. And we solve it together.. Don't keep it to yourself, but tell it to me too.. I'll be waiting for you.. Trust me..

YEAPIEEE!! ^_^

Another has gone.. Looking forward for tomorrow, for another to come, for the future.. xD.. Each day brings new things to be learned, to be made, to be done.. How wonderful it is to be me.. hehe.. hmmmm, have you ever noticed that you are in love, you always go around with a smile on your face.. ^^ Indeed, love brings immense happiness to the lives of those who are experiencing it.. Yeah.. So am I.. I'm happy that I found you in life.. You not only had bring love, care to me, but you had thought me a lot about lives, about being the true me.. You accepted me for who I am, accepted my everything, and still showed me the smile.. I'm proud to be me, and proud to had you.. I love you my hubby ( ◕ ‿ ◕ ) .. Mwarhs.. xD.. Your heart is my home, warm, cozy, and nice!! It's the only place I loved to be in.. Teheess... I'm sorry that sometimes I don't understand you.. I'm sorry that sometimes I make you disappointed but I promise, to be the good girl you wanted, promise to bring you happiness each day =) But I hope hubby promise me, not to get mad easily ya.. xD.. Wishing that each day brings our renewed strength, brighter times, and a healthier, happier us (◕ ‿ ◕).. And I also hope that hubby don't think too much ya.. I know we are far apart from each other, you're worried about me, about our future, but I just wanna say, though we are far apart, but I still will wait till you're back.. Still that love you.. I still trust, distance relationship can last!! Because distance can never seperates 2 hearts that is true..

TIRED OF BEING HERE!! FOOLISHNESS, CHILDISHNESS!!!

I haven't had a day off and I'm already tired.. I'm sick and tired!! Tired of being sick!! Tired of being tired!!! I'm afraid to be alone, I'm afraid not to be alone.. I'm afraid of what I am, what I'm not, what I might become, what I might never become.. I don't want to stay like this for the rest of my life, but I'm afraid that will happen.. And I'm just tired, you know?! I'm just so tired of being afraid.. I kept telling myself, I can make it till the end of the road.. I believe God exist, He will care for us, take good care of us, guard us till the very end of our lives.. ANd I do hope you believe in God too, that He will lead the way, but why can't you just stay strong and don't be affected by your surroundings, by our surroundings and always finds something to quarrel about? I know you care, you worried about me, ya, so am I!! But I just wanna say, I hated the quarrel, I hated the arguments that we always had!! I hated crying too!!! It's really damn hard to explain to you how I feel for you.. You always says you understand me, but why I don't feel like you understanding me?!! Nevermind... Its not your fault that you don't understand me, because I'm the one making all the foolish stuff, that makes you don't understand me at all!!I just needed trust, secure, honest, understanding, patient, loving caring.. And that's all I wanted!!!! Why is it so hard?!!! I really feel like saying that F*** words now... But I had promise you not to say anymore, And I will keep my promises... You promise to be an understanding person, you promise to not get angry easily, but did you make it? YOu keep say I disappointed you, but do you think about yourself? Hello!! I'm a girl, you're a guy.. You should be tougher then me, and not asking me to be tougher then you!!! Though I make wrong sometimes, but can you be the guy, the man to forgive? You did wrong sometimes, but I choose the happiness road and to forgive, and not mad.. Because I trust that if I do so, you also will do so... I had showed you an example already, but why can't you sees it???!!! Being together with you is an happy thing, but when it comes to quarrel, I really feel like I'm dead!! I hated guys shouted at me!! Hated guys treat girls like this, Hated guys don't know how to comfort girls!!! You're always right, and I'm always wrong.. You never notice it, even though I told you so, you will say I'm the one always wanted to win!! Huh... You don't even trust me!! It happens to me twice in my life!! I thought you will be the one brings new hope for me!! I really don't understand why long distance relationship is hard for guys?!!! Is love really there???? 

HEART FELT

I love you not only for what you are, 

but for what I am when I am with you.
I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, 

but for what you are making of me.
I love you for that part of me you bring out

WIPE MY TEARS OFF.. PLEASE..

I'm so tired of being here.. Tired of being me, making lots of decisions.. Thinking a lot.. Worrying for my future.. Worrying what I'm gonna be.. All I want, is just a future that bring me happiness.. Is it really hard to reached that goal? Is that goal still far away? Will that goal waits for me? If the journey to reached the goal, had to go through suffer, pain, hurts to reached that happiness goal, then I'll just say yes, I'm willingly and I'm ready to walk through all that pain to gain happiness in the future.. As I walk through that journey, will you accompany me? Together, reaching that goal? I know distance had kept us away, but fate had bring us together, then why can't we built this relationship stronger?? Stronger and tougher.. No one can break this relationship unless either one of us gives up and break it.. I don't hope so it happens.. We had been getting along this far, please don't make any single sad tears to fall out.. This days you changed a lot.. I was thinking am I thinking a lot, or you really do changed a lot? You treat me worst than before, is it your friends do give you suggestion on our relationship? On how to be in control of this relationship? If it is so, then I only can say, I'm sorry for all the nonsense that I've done before, but I can't have someone in my life that be in control of this relationship.. Being together isn't about being in control of it, but is to show your love, care and bring happiness to each other.. Life is full of meaningful stuff.. There's many more to learned.. Though sometimes we fall, we fail, we suffer, we cried, but the only things must always be remembered is that never gives up, get back on where we fail, stand back on your foot and fights all the fears.. Because behind that fears, its the goal, waiting for us.. I know in this relationship that we having now, is going to reached that goal soon... Hope that we stand strong together, stand united together, care for each other much more, nothing can stop us then.. I misses you every nights and days, I really wish you're here.. But I never wanted to say it, I don't want you to felt that you're useless, can't be here for me.. But please don't think that, you're already good enough for me, nothing much more to asked.. You just have to be yourself, and not what others wanted you to be.. Love as if we never love before...

WHAT I FELT

The distance between us may keep us apart
Because we met for a reason 
I knew in my heart 
that we were perfect from the start
There are times when I smile at the mention of your name
And times when I cry because I miss you the same
I know you love me and it breaks my heart
Because the distance between us keeps us apart
But God knows our hearts
And knows you and me
He won't keep apart 
A love that is pure or a love that is true
So until the day our paths cross once more
I will be waiting with the key to my heart
Waiting to let you in

BUDDIES FOREVER

Huh..Another tiring day has passed.. But life is still that fun, amazing.. =) Hmmm, feeling fresh, awake today.. xD.. It's been a week not upgrading my blog le gua.. Now I'm back again.. hehe.. Planning to upload some pics now.. hehe.. It's a memories of fun with friends.. Never thought it will be that much fun with you guys.. And ya, I did, having so much fun with you guys.. I admit it, you guys are the best buddies I ever had.. Caring, fun, jokes alot, doing Dian Ji stuff.. haha... Well..

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ME... VAZ TAN.. ALLEN TIONG ◕ ‿ ◕

19 FEBRUARY 2011.. MEMORABLE MEMORIES..

A FRIEND.. ME.. DOLLIS CHAN.. DUIZ YE ◕ ‿ ◕

19 FEBRUARY 2011.. MEMORABLE MEMORIES..

JOSEPHINE BANNAVONG.. ME.. MICHELLE LING ◕ ‿ ◕

12 MARCH 2011.. HAVING FUN TOGETHER..

DOLLIS CHAN.. DUIZ YE.. ME.. MICHELLE LING ◕ ‿ ◕

13 MARCH 2011.. HAPPY BLESSED BIRTHDAY MICHELLE..

DUIZ YE.. MICHELLE LING.. GILLIAN LING.. ME.. DOLLIS CHAN.. ALLEN TIONG ◕ ‿ ◕

13 MARCH 2011.. AT MY HOUSE, AND IT'S MICHELLE'S BIRTHDAY.. YEA.. CAKES ON THE FACE.. MUAHAHAHA

LOVE YOU ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS..

Really having a great time with you guys.. No matter where we are, we all will still be the friends in the heart.. Appreciate every moments together.. Cherish every moment together.. The fun, the happiness.. and also, especially the laughter.. There will always be laughter whenever we hang around.. And also the words, "Dian Ji", "Bo Su", "Doh", "Aap", "Yao Bu Rrrran" & many more.. hehe... I still remember "WATERFALL".. haha.. It happens twice, really xai soi, but since you guys laugh so much, it's okay, laugh bah.. Seeing you guys happy, I'm happy too.. Everyones laughter face, I still can remember it in my mind.. Funny.. hehe.. =)

What Life Really About

HUh!! Pass few weeks, It has been a tiring week.. Sad, damn week!! I only can say, please take care my dear friend, Vaz Tan.. Though your far apart from us, but just wanna say we still misses you.. Rest in Peace.. I know your at the place that you should be now.. We will meet one day in Heaven.. Take Care always.. I really dare to say, that you are really such a wonderful friend that I ever had.. I never knew whats life and death is really about, till I lost a wonderful friend like you.. We never know what gonna happen to our tomorrow, to our future, but I just wanna say, please friends, appreciate what you have now.. NEver get regret when its gone, because you never treasure it while you have, you take it for granted.. So, please, concern for the people surround you.. Time never wait for us.. Please really treasure it.. So as me.. 

What I have now, I will really appreciate it, will always do the best for it.. To my dear, will treasure you in my life, you're one of the best thing that ever happen in my life.. I found God in my life, I have a wonderful, happy family, and I found you dear.. Such a perfect life.. Though your not here with me, but I know your caring for me too.. Though sometimes I says that I'm okay, I just don't want you to worried, doesn't want you to think alot.. But really deep down in my heart, I just needed a hug that will warms my heart, so that my heart will feel secure.. But I never told you this, cause I just wanna you to be happy, and not worrying.. Now, I'm just looking forward you to come Kuching find me.. I misses you.. When my friend passes away, I'm crying badly, that time, I'm just hoping you're there comforting me.. But then, end up in quarrel with you.. That time, I really thinks that life sucks.. But after all the struggle to stand strong in life, I made it through, with the help of the LORD.. Now, I'm back to myself, and you're with me.. I promise to be the good girl you wanted.. But I really do hope, you will be there when I needed you.. But if can't, I won't blame you too.. I know you also got your own problem to struggle, I don't wanna see you sad.. Promise me you're happy too.. There's a lot things that I wanted in life, but I don't wish to say to you, as long your happy, I'm satisfied le.. You're always in my heart..

HAPPY WHEN I'M WITH YOU

Hi there.. It's been a week being together with ya.. I'm happy and thanks God that I meet you in life.. You bring me the happiness, joy, that I wanting for in life.. The love that I go after for in the past, hurt me alot.. But since you came in my life, I had forgotten about the hurt that is in me, and began to start a new life.. I tried my best to be the good girl you wanted.. I tried my best to not disappoint you in life.. But all those, I keep breaking my promise.. Your too good for me, that I take it for granted sometimes.. I don't think that I would find another person as you in life.. I'm sorry for all those stuff that I make, disappointed you.. I didn't meant it that way, and I didn't know that you would hurt..

But no matter what, I respect you decisions.. I got no words to say anymore, it all my fault.. I'm not suitable for the love that you gave, you can find even a better girl in life, that will be better than me.. I will always wish you the best in life.. God bless you always and be with you always.. Take good care of yourself.. You don't need to worried about me, I guess,  you will not even worried about me anymore.. You treat me like this, I know I deserve it.. I'm a bad girl.. Thanks for the care all this while..

FOr YOu..

Huh.. It's been a tiring week, working, hanging out with frens.. But most of all, I'm happy to be me.. But... Sometimes it's really tiring to stay alive.. It's tiring to think so much.. Why can't just happiness stay forever? Day passes by fast, time passes by fast.. There's still much things to learned in life.. But, how I wish I could learn to be strong.. I don't wanna be emotional too much.. I don't wanna think to much.. Now I know, being a child, is a wonderful thing in life.. No stress no nothing, just play and happy always.. If I had been given the chance to go back to being a child, should I just say yes? But guess, your wrong, I'll not say NO, Because, if I do say yes, maybe there won't be any chances that we will meet in life.. Meeting you in life, its a great thing, Cause if it wasn’t for you, I wouldn't learn to forget and let go the past and learn how it feels to get a brand new start.. I wanna thank you for that.. Everything I knew about love, I learned from you.. You show me what's love really is about... But the most important thing you ever gave me was the love I always wanted.. You care for me, show me your love, but just I'm sorry for disappointing you with my naughtiness sometimes.. But please don't ever revenge it back to me as I do.. But no matter what, do as you like, it's your free will.. Just promise me baby you’ll be here, through it all.. Thank you for teaching me the love.. Cause if it wasn’t for you, I wouldn’t be here With the love of my life, You.. I finally understood what true love meant.. Love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be..

REUNION DINNER

hELLO!! Yea.. It's Chinese New Year Eve today.. Soon gonna eat dinner together with family le.. Happy ah.. hehe.. Anyway, Wish You all Happy Chinese New Year Eve =) Wish You all Happy always, May this year be a new begin, new life, to all.. It's goona be a great year =) Reunion dinner is not just a dinner only, but its the heart, the willingness to spend time with family.. Eating together, sharing the joy, happiness together.. Its only 1 year 1 time.. So please fellow friends, spend your time willingly with your families... Last time I always thought that friends will always be there for us whenever we needed help.. But then, now, I realise, ya, friends will be there for us, but still family gives the best results overall..

Love You all always.. hmmmmm, everything seems to be changed day by day... I began to realise, I keep on holding onto something that seems are meant not to be for each other and without realizing that a door has already open up for me, waiting for me.. There my happiness will be, but thanks God, He had open my eyes to see the things that is for me, my happiness is there waiting for me.. Yea.... But most of all, I've got  a family that is loving.. Always be there for me.. Reunion dinner is what I've been waiting every year.. Looking forward for it .. Anyway, take care everyone.. xD..

SOMEONE TO LOVE

Finally

He came along

Broke the spell

And set me free

Pushed aside

What use to be

All the broken hearted man that once was me

I never gave it up

I always believe

When he's in my arms I know what I achieve

So hear my loneliness

I'm giving up on you

I don't need you anymore

I've found what I've been looking for

So hear my emptiness

I've got no room for you

I've finally found what I've been dreaming of

Someone to love

Hey

Cos I was lost

I was down and out

Until that day

I knew what my life was all about

Still wonder how

He came my way

He's the reason I'm smiling here today

So hear my loneliness

I'm giving up on you

I don't need you anymore

I've found what I been looking for

So hear my emptiness

I've got no room for you

I've finally found what I've been dreaming of

Someone to love

To hold

To be my inspiration

Someone to touch, to cherish for life

So hear my loneliness

I'm giving up on you

I don't need you anymore

I've found what I been looking for

So hear my emptiness

I've got no room for you

I've finally found what I've been dreaming of

Someone to love

Someone to love

Oh baby

So hear my emptiness

I've got no room for you

I've finally found what I've been dreaming of

I've finally found what I've been dreaming of

Someone to love

Someone to love

Lalalalala~

Hmmmm, old post deleted.. hahass... Sad memories, past memories is always the past.. So bye bye old post, say hello to the new post.. I've found someone I really wanna be with.. ANd I'm gonna love him forever.. Mwarhs.. hehe.. Thanks God for everything that He has done in my life.. xD..  So, let's get the party starting.. muahahaha... Oh wel.. Buy-bye..