WIPE MY TEARS OFF.. PLEASE..

I'm so tired of being here.. Tired of being me, making lots of decisions.. Thinking a lot.. Worrying for my future.. Worrying what I'm gonna be.. All I want, is just a future that bring me happiness.. Is it really hard to reached that goal? Is that goal still far away? Will that goal waits for me? If the journey to reached the goal, had to go through suffer, pain, hurts to reached that happiness goal, then I'll just say yes, I'm willingly and I'm ready to walk through all that pain to gain happiness in the future.. As I walk through that journey, will you accompany me? Together, reaching that goal? I know distance had kept us away, but fate had bring us together, then why can't we built this relationship stronger?? Stronger and tougher.. No one can break this relationship unless either one of us gives up and break it.. I don't hope so it happens.. We had been getting along this far, please don't make any single sad tears to fall out.. This days you changed a lot.. I was thinking am I thinking a lot, or you really do changed a lot? You treat me worst than before, is it your friends do give you suggestion on our relationship? On how to be in control of this relationship? If it is so, then I only can say, I'm sorry for all the nonsense that I've done before, but I can't have someone in my life that be in control of this relationship.. Being together isn't about being in control of it, but is to show your love, care and bring happiness to each other.. Life is full of meaningful stuff.. There's many more to learned.. Though sometimes we fall, we fail, we suffer, we cried, but the only things must always be remembered is that never gives up, get back on where we fail, stand back on your foot and fights all the fears.. Because behind that fears, its the goal, waiting for us.. I know in this relationship that we having now, is going to reached that goal soon... Hope that we stand strong together, stand united together, care for each other much more, nothing can stop us then.. I misses you every nights and days, I really wish you're here.. But I never wanted to say it, I don't want you to felt that you're useless, can't be here for me.. But please don't think that, you're already good enough for me, nothing much more to asked.. You just have to be yourself, and not what others wanted you to be.. Love as if we never love before...